08.12.07

Applying theories

Posted in Voices inside my head at 9:07 am by dmingz

Men is always in a paradox. on the one hand u noe u shld do sth, but in reality u are doing exactly the opposite.

Blown my temper today cos i acted faster then my i/c to arrange things due to change in weather. and got angry cos he would not follow my planning and reverse all my arrangements.

when u elect a leader, even if they are of lesser experience than you, you should follow their lead, and give them the due respect. otherwise y bother to elect the leader?

But all that’s in theory. its really not so easy to apply. unlike the laws of physics that we learn in sch n apply them easily to all the hypothetical qns in exams. to apply theories in real life is a wholy different game.

1stly, there’s the emotional issue. deep inside there is a part of me that like to be in control of things, and the unwillingness to let go of control. Also, i realise i like to lecture the lesser experienced for 1 reason or another. Mabbe the teacher part of me has seeped into my personality without my realisation.

2nd there’s the pressure of what others expect you to do. What is the difference between “guidance” and “interference”? When you see sth and predicts tt wat follows is not going right, when and how do you step in? And when you step in (or not), and the execution and result is not satisfactory, whose responsible? the I/C or you? If you do step in, will the I/C see you as an “interference”? i kena scolding 1 time when i did not step in to correct sth as a “senior”, so tt kinda confuses me now.

I am threading a fine balance and somehow i cannot manage it. come to think of it, aren’t my bosses doing the same thing? hence all my troubles at work. well, if he’s still trying to manage it at 50-sth, i guess i still have a long time to learn.

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