07.03.07
Pain transfer
While I was q-ing to make purchase today, I noticed the girl in front of my had a lot of cuts on the back of her arm. When I say a lot, it means that every inch of her skin has a scar that has either healed, or is healing.
I was quite appalled, seeing tt a ger as young as she is suffering like that. I was even more horrified to see that there even more scars covered her wrist, right down to the arm. so much, that i cannot even see her white skin.
At that moment my heart ached for her. I felt like holding her and ask “Ger, are you alright? Do you need my help?”
When i relate this incident to my colleagues in office, I was told tt people cut themselves to run away from stress, or pain. They actually cannot feel the pain when they cut themselves as they are in too much emotional pain.
If they cannot feel the pain, then what is the point of cutting themselves? to torture themselves is to transfer the emotional pain tt they are going through, to physical pain and if they cannot feel it as they slit their wrist, then why torture themselves?
Ishi was only 25, fresh out from school and life was just beginning. And he chose to end it. Is ending of life a way to end pain? or has he just transfered his pain to his mother, who arrived at the scene to cry on his lifeless form. has the ger ended her pain when she slit herself? or transfer her pain to me, a passerby who ache for her, as well as her parents and friends who are unable to stop her from cutting herself?
Perhaps, when we are unable to end our pain, we seek to transfer it to someone or something else. If so, when will pain ever end?
Sorry if i m not making too much sense today, as i m still in pain.
